I
want to take the time to write down the events of this day. It’s a day I want
to remember for the rest of my life in every detail. Last night Jesse and I had
gone on a date together to Sioux City and on the way home we bought a pregnancy
test but I was fully expecting it to come back negative. We had agreed that we
would wait to take it until a date that we both had off but the next morning I
woke up and was wide awake I was too excited to wait so I took it anyway and it
surprised me more than I can say to see that it was positive! !! I was so
excited I ran to our bedroom and jumped on the bed and started shaking Jesse
squealing his name and saying, “Jesse! Jesse! Guess what! Guess what!” shaking
him and squealing with delight. When I took the test I hadn't realized it but I
still had one left over that I had bought on Black Friday. It was a Clear Blue
one that tells you how far along you are. My plan was to take the cheap one and
then if I was pregnant I would take the other one later. I was still in
disbelief when it came back positive. I sent Vicki a picture message of the
positive pregnancy test and then she called me right away and was crying
because she was so happy for us. Then I also sent a picture to my mom but her
response wasn't quite as thrilling. She asked me if it was mine. Not sure why
she thinks I would send a picture of somebody else's pregnancy test but that's
okay. Vicki asked me to come over because she had kids that she was babysitting
but Jesse and I ended up not going for a while. He said he took priority. He
said some of the sweetest things like “This is the first time that I'm holding
my pregnant wife” and “This is the first day of the rest of our lives” and then
he started asking me about all the things that we still need to buy it was so
unreal to be actually talking about it like it was a real thing that was
actually happening. We originally said that we were going to wait to tell
people but I was too excited so that didn't last very long. I told Vicki and
she got really excited and told Nate. I told my mom and I ended up telling a
friend from church too. We went to Hy Vee and got coffee while Jesse got coffee
before we went to Vicky's house then when we got home Jesse took Rachel
hunting. While he was gone I just kind of sat there on the couch for a minute
like “What do I do now?” When Jesse got home he told me some even more exciting
news! Jake got tickets to go to the playoffs at Lambeau Field but we would have
to rearrange all of our Christmas plan's to be able to go. I called my mom to
talk to her about it and then Jesse called his mom to talk to her about it and
between the two of us we figured out a way to be able to go. In the middle of
all that Vicki called me to tell me that she was on the way to the emergency
room. We were supposed to have missionaries over for dinner but I knew it
wasn't going to be ready in time and I had no idea how long I would be in the
ER with Vicki for so I ended up telling them that we had to cancel. I was in
the emergency room with Vicki from about 4:30 until 9 at
night. I sent a message to my dad asking him what he was doing if he was
working today because I have been trying to call him to tell him that we got
the package and to thank him for it. I was going to wait to tell him but then
he asked me if I was ok and I just couldn't contain my excitement anymore so I
called him to tell him the news I was a little apprehensive because I was
afraid that he would be kind of neutral about it and not as excited but he was
very excited! I came home and took a shower and got ready to go over to Vicki's
house because she was having some friends over. I got to meet her new boyfriend
Greg who seems pretty nice and I found out that she had already told Heidi. That
part kind of made me mad a little bit because it wasn't her news to tell and I was
still trying to decide if and how I wanted to tell Heidi but I knew it wasn't
worth getting upset over. The damage was already done. Vicki, Greg, and I went
to the hot tub and I could only put my feet in because I was pregnant and at
about 1145 I left and went to meet Jesse at his work to be able to kiss him at midnight.
We set and talked with his friend Kennan for a while and then I left and went
back to Vicki's house but I was feeling so tired. I left and went home but the
whole day I was just so excited. Its taking every ounce of self-control I
already don't have not to broadcast it to the whole wide world because there's
still a chance that I might not be pregnant there's still a chance that I can
miscarry and then what do I do after I told all those people. Anyway, it's an
exciting day for both of us! 2014 is going to be a great year. I'm going to
bring a baby into the world I get to graduate from college. We're going to
Canada, and we're going to Lambeau Field to see the playoffs! What more could a
couple ask for?!
Even weeks later I am still somewhat in disbelief. I keep waiting for the other shoe to drop! I's so weird because I have some things down in the basement in storage and part of me wants to get them out and start taking inventory, but I know it's way too early for that!
So far school has been manageable. I do have moments where I feel too hot or just really full and almost all of the time nothing tastes right. Time feels like its just slowly creeping by!
In other news, I put in my notice at my job. I've really enjoyed working here but my Minnesota nursing license expires at the end of the month and there won't be a position open for me once I graduate so I didn't really see the point in renewing it. I've put in a couple applications elsewhere and even had an interview already (I'm really hoping to get that position!)
Also, thanks to Obamacare, our insurance coverage changed. AGP switched companies. It's now cheaper, but covers much less. The strattera that I take for ADHD that used to be $50 a month (which is btw still outrageous!) is now $100 a month! I'm going to call the manufacturer and see if I can qualify for a discount, but if not there's no way I can justify spending that much money! I've been without it for 2 days so far and I've made a couple rash/stupid decisions but nothing too terrible yet.
Jesse is also thinking about switching jobs, but we will see what March brings. Both of us graduate in May and after that there's nothing else keeping us in Sheldon besides his job. I don't really want to change doctors but I will if I have to... I'll keep ya posted on that front.
First exam tomorrow! Wish me luck and thanks for reading!!!!
